If I can turn against myself then I can also stop and get well!

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And so I pondered in June 1996 at a basic-course in Autogenic Training. I had signed up for this course because of my good experiences with the relaxation warmth, I had had after my pictorial image of the soft, light, enveloping blanket. In the course, I hoped to find more inspiration for relaxing and warming exercises. Before the course began the instructor told me: “This doesn‘t help with autoimmune diseases.” However, I didn‘t let that discourage me and sat in my seat on time.

As we introduced ourselves the instructor’s first note on my introduction was: “An autoimmune disease arises when the body is going against itself.” While the other participants gave me compassionate looks, I figured:

“But I am my body!“*

So if „I“ am capable of attacking myself then I can as well stop it and get well!

What power I must possess over myself so that I can induce rheumatoid arthritis – and that without knowing anything about it for all the passed time!

I can help myself!

and I pondered on: “How does RA feel? Like a searing knife – like an ongoing, raising cramp in the calf or in the foot!

And what eliminates a cramp?

Relaxation!“

This fantastic finding stayed with me, made me marvel and made me happy for it opened a new perspective that leads to new possibilities and gave me hope.

In the beginning, we participants should enter into the conscious relaxation with the phrase “everything is heavy and warm”*.

It became clear to me that not only could I sense and relax larger body regions (like my hands, feet, arms, legs, etc.) as directed, but due to the awful pain that raged in my body, as opposed to the other participants I was involuntarily practised to even sense much smaller areas, for example, my finger and toe joints.

Since then, I trained silently all by myself. And as I trained and relieved myself from the pain my desire to once for all end RA grew. I had suffered for so long that I wanted my whole body at once to be pain-free and I wanted it now. But in my attempts to direct my deliberate concentration on the relaxation of all regions I felt pain in at the same time, I failed. The relaxation I used was opening my senses again and so when I used it against the pain in the first place it enrolled and became worse before I could end it. So as I tried to relax my whole body at once the pain I experienced was too severe to be successful in eliminating it. I felt like the pain was floating me away and the experiments stopped first. And back home there waited for piled-up work for me to do.

The course became my safe harbour where neither household nor work mattered. It was a free zone where I only needed to sit in my chair and care about myself. I no longer dared to do my all-encompassing physical training attempt. So I was in a big circle, all other participants were busy and I sat around. No stress, no racing.

My right thumb reported pain. My hand laid calm and open on my upper leg. I looked down on it and tried my first, own exercise on my thumb and my heel of the thumb.

And it worked. As soon as I combined conscious relaxation with mental images and followed my pain perception!

This way I overcame the pain!

It faded away.

I then repeated this exercise with every pain attack and expanded it from my thumb with increasing success. I had begun with a simple mental image that was associated with comfort and triggered relaxation and from now went on with consciously combining my relaxation exercises with my mental images.

Doing so I could mastered more intense pain which led to the complete decay of the respective inflammation and later the entire chronic reaction chain.

I watched how my body would act after my relaxing images if I only connected and constructed them the right way. They would only work if they were imagined and repeated clear and distinct. Over time I developed a feeling of myself as a whole as an organism with a soul in which everything affects everything.

With success my conviction changed from: “I will (someday, somehow) heal” into: “I am healing myself (right now)”.

From this point in my HeilÜben-exercises on, I directly put my skills to use against pain, inflammation, and chronic course. My pain and my new knowledge about where it came from allowed me to detect previously unnoticed tension.

So over time, I started to know better from my own experience, how and why my body felt like it felt:

  • increasing pain – increasing tension,

  • decreasing pain – decreasing tension,

  • no pain, no inflammation – I am below my upper stress-limit.

In the process, I learned how the inflammation in my joints arose from overloading tension and how I could take control of this process through deliberate relaxation! The relaxation of muscles and tendons by relaxing ultimately reduced and ended the inflammation in the joints connected to them and accordingly also decreased tension and tendency to inflammation in general.

I identified my tension as the cause of the inflammatory and painful process in my joints in everyday situations confident and relaxed specifically to address this tension. I learned how my RA as a result of mechanical joint overload originated in posture and movement due to excessive tension smaller-scale and/or poor posture and was maintained.

The HeilÜben-exercises in Level 2 start with the hands. In my case, they were the starting point from where the inflammation of fingers, hands and arms spread over other parts of the body and I could restrain it from there as well.

Within a few weeks, I managed to respond to the pain signals in my hands, arms and feet immediately after their commencement.

So I tried in a variety of situations, whether and how I relaxation, which I deliberately used, helped against inflammatory pain. It was not about getting into undiscovered depths of relaxation and doing something particularly difficult. It was about actually using my skills. Just by trying, giving myself the necessary opportunities and time and peace, I trained and was able to relax more intensively than before.

I experienced that the pain in the area with which I practised subsided, and eventually disappeared.

The individual exercises lasted only a few minutes in the subsequent period and went more and more into the habit. The distances between the sudden at some point my body appearing pain attacks widened.

But still, it wasn‘t all rosy all of a sudden. The following difficulties still were an exception to my rebuild pain-control:

  • if more than one body part would hurt simultaneously;
  • if I was asleep and therefore not conscious at all my body would still „function“ how it was used to: sickening;
  • some situations that needed my full attention stopped me from exercising;
  • back and shoulders sometimes hurt after or during sleep. I assumed that I had bent badly in my sleep and looked for a remedy with various mattresses and pillows. That it could have also acted here to rheumatism, was months later before I realized, as I found out to my dismay later, that such symptoms can also indicate the onset of rheumatic spinal inflammation and
  • at first, I just couldn‘t think of any knee- or elbow-exercises.

 

Early 1997 until the end of 1998:

While I was thinking and trying, my back, shoulders and knees benefited from the sharp decline in inflammatory tendencies in general. It hardly occurred different pain flock at the same time, my elbows were trained with my forearm/upper arm exercise.

I found excessive tension in more and more everyday situations as I continue to relate my thoughts and emotions to my posture and movement. My hands were where I had started so I made them my starting point:

Our hands are important companions. They can help us coordinate and control, to express us through body language, our expression of feelings and needs. We are taking matters into our own hands. This is evidenced by our need to reach and shape the things around us, to give them meaning; the need to prevail, to communicate. And this influences the position of our arms and legs, our hands and feet to each other.

In the case of misperceptions, I still sometimes spontaneously tried to achieve this expression through tensing. In Level 3 I consciously and deliberately reduced this habit by using relaxation.

This way I could reduce this tension permanently below my upper limit.

The Heilben-exercises are a serious business like any other. The less one knows the less it’ll bring. And in spite of every amount of suffering nobody wanted and deserved. So I rolled up my sleeves and learned to deal with the stress-related rheumatoid arthritis more skillfully than before.

To heal and to lead a healthier life I needed my rational mind, my body-consciousness and my psyche alike. Only the use of all three made it possible to grasp my challenges as best as possible. My body „told“ me when I felt pain, my psyche whenever I was sad, angry or anxious and my rational mind helped me to put all the experiences together. I could then try what would help best against pain and inflammation. Sometimes I learned faster sometimes slower. I corrected myself whenever I found a logic mistake and added my insight into my experiences of what I found to be helpful to use against the disease.

With the HeilÜben I brought my RA back into the area of my rational mind where I could apply logic and work out with what I was actually dealing. I noticed that I could comprehend the overload that tormented my body. This relieved me from a significant stressor that followed my condition: The fear of the unexplainable of the uncontrollable.

  • When I had understood and used connections in the right way the pain would decrease.
  • When I managed to successfully carry out a HeilÜben-exercise I would notice that by the ending of the inflammatory pain.
  • The less pain emerges and the shorter it stays the less inflammation and destruction are going on.
  • No pain means no inflammation.
  • No inflammation means: the destruction is stopped until the next overload occurs.

In addition, during the HeilÜben, my disease-sustaining tension habit, the chronic course, was reduced.

This was how it would go on from there until I healed: I felt arthritic pain and used my exercises adjusting them to my current needs.

I gained experience and more confidence in myself, to do something right and effective. So I was able to react sooner, quicker and purposefully. And this after a while of exercise even if, for example, I was distracted or still half asleep.

My body would tell me:

no pain – done right

pain – there is still a problem there

In this manner, I was able to detect overload, tension and stress factors and to gradually relieve them.

With my approach, I simultaneously relieved musculature and connective tissues and consequently my joints. According to the release, the inflammatory and destructive operations declined.

With the now expanded exercises, I learned how to divide my attention so that, for example, I could imperceptibly practice in the midst of a lively conversation, without interrupting it.

I had learned that I reacted to unpleasant sensations with tension. I continued practising to prevent, end or handle the unfavourable circumstances in order to regularise my emotional response so I would be less strained and could find my inner peace when the stressing situation was over. Even if a certain circumstance, which I found unpleasant, stressful, annoying, scary, etc., did not change at all. When I pull my tensions off, I relieve myself anyway. My sensations become less uncomfortable, I lose less energy and stay healthier.

I got to know the effect of tension, which either influenced me for a long time or fast and excessive, as a trigger and maintainer of my RA.

The constant practice now fulfilled the purpose of detraining the ill habit of responding to stimuli and overloads with unresolved tension and confirmed: With attention and conscious movement, I was able to change my physical and mental condition to the turning point! Within the following months, my HeilÜben exercises grew with my findings and became more and more a strong, healthy habit, that eventually would let me sleep without inflammation.

My pain and limitation of motion decreased step by step. My hands, arms and feet were slim and agile again. My rheumatoid arthritis healed.

Next post: A strong emotion found physical expression faster than a conscious thought had the chance to intervene

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Laureen

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