… From 1999 to 3/2001:
During these years I still experienced a few isolated and increasingly rare initial stimuli. A slight pulling in individual areas: in my hands, wrists, arms or feet. When I employed my exercises, I was able to stop these initial stimuli within a few minutes. Just like a cramp in the calf or a headache I took action right away and not sometimes later.
Therefore inflammation, pain, swellings or movement restrictions didn‘t occur anymore.
After the RA vanished I had learned to feel the tension that had led me there and I don’t do it to myself anymore for since then I can feel it again and stop it as soon as it is about to start.
The constant growth of my mental abilities and with it – in addition to all the intense joy and expansion – “the suffer that comes with progress” meant that I could consciously feel (body & soul), and act (also grieve, process something internally, deciding to flight or attack, or to seek help from others) before the internal burden would build up again so that my body becomes seriously ill. The degree to which I understand and practice my abilities is my latitude in action. In my opinion, this procedure is also suitable for me to prevent rheumatoid arthritis.
With my recovery, the issue of rheumatism was ticked off for me. My life raced on and I just forgot the awful time with rheumatoid arthritis.
Until my daughter asked …
At the beginning of 2010, I typed ‘rheumatoid arthritis’ into the computer keyboard for the first time and read about how the disease went on in countless other cases. The result shocked me, made me sad.
And a strong emotion found physical expression: The familiar, pulling pain in my hand spoke up:
“Listen to your soul.”
So I did and had to admit to myself: still, my body and my soul remembered the fear of the inflammatory pain, of the exhaustion, of the effects of medication and inflammation, and the frighteningly unpredictable occurring of pain and swelling. And again I was afraid of being so ill, feeling so helpless again.
As I became aware of these thoughts and emotions, I relaxed, and the pulling subsided.
This „being-aware-of-my-feelings-as-best-as-possible“ today also is a part of my prevention of a new disease.
The search for meaning in life, for new explanations, dissolution, happiness, success and self-realization, for life wisdom, does not need a sick body, even if the “value of health” is often experienced only through illness and the self-experience can be challenged by the overall pressure of suffering.
By healing rheumatoid arthritis, I understand the absence of all the discomfort caused by it, which has since allowed me full mobility again. This is the reason for me to believe that I choose the right time to begin my HeilÜben-exercises to avoid any irreversible damage.
That is why today I have got a healthier and more conscious influence on my body than before my healing from RA.
The overburdening attempt to force me or force something through myself, tensing and even letting my own body into it, made me sick. My alternative was to be more friendly with myself, thanks to whom I learned to recognize or relieve excessive tension in good time. So I could meet life in a variety of situations with less tension.
Self-help in rheumatoid arthritis is a serious self-development. She also trains other skills such as motivation and perseverance. These too were important skills for me beyond my healing of RA.
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