My pain and physical decline made me very sad. My condition gave me anxiety and worry, I felt shame and anger. And this mental effort also physically invalidated me. Mostly I was tired and exhausted, freezing hard. From this cold, the goosebumps on my arms, the chill witch rushed through my entire diseased body, I first noticed how what I felt emotionally could be found as a physical expression in my muscles, my nerves, my skin.